A simple, yet essential concept in Psychology was brought to my attention by one of my professors. Being that personality is strictly a construct, separate from behavior, and cannot be seen nor analyzed. This is because of the fact that, just because we act a certain way, we simply are playing roles. Humans have a persona to put on according to the situation we find ourselves in but, until a person truly gets through to you, begins to understand you, we can never assume we know anything about another human beings personality.
Once the personality is fully developed, the only way we and other humans we encounter can ever see our personality is when we experience a psychological break down. Perhaps this can be attributed to my ever decreasing contact with the general public. While by the age of 26, I should be well on my way to stabilizing my personality--becoming the person I am going to be, for the rest of my existence, I am all of about 9 years behind.
While a lot of those poor individuals experiencing physical trauma (being that of abuse, starvation, etc) tend to have stunted bodily growth, it has also become clear that psychological trauma tends to stunt mental growth. While chronologically, I (unfortunately) cannot stop the years from adding up, I am behind those my age in terms of maturity and coping skills--in a way. It has been almost 9 years to the day that I so suddenly lost my brother--and the events that followed still haunt me to this day. I plan on taking more time to delve into discovering the events leading up to this day-uprooting memories repressed, analyzing how it is I am the person I am today, that which drives me to get on with my life-to do whatever it takes to follow my passion, and how just months ago I came to realize that, when I hear the front door open, it is not, nor will it ever again be, John.
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